When I think about Jesus, I think about His patience and His kindness toward me.
It takes me to the following parable Jesus teaches in Matt. 18:21-33:
The parable of the unmerciful servant
21 Then Peter came to Jesus and asked, ‘Lord, how many times shall I forgive my brother or sister who sins against me? Up to seven times?’
22 Jesus answered, ‘I tell you, not seven times, but seventy-seven times.[f]
23 ‘Therefore, the kingdom of heaven is like a king who wanted to settle accounts with his servants. 24 As he began the settlement, a man who owed him ten thousand bags of gold[g] was brought to him. 25 Since he was not able to pay, the master ordered that he and his wife and his children and all that he had be sold to repay the debt.
26 ‘At this the servant fell on his knees before him. “Be patient with me,” he begged, “and I will pay back everything.” 27 The servant’s master took pity on him, cancelled the debt and let him go.
28 ‘But when that servant went out, he found one of his fellow servants who owed him a hundred silver coins.[h] He grabbed him and began to choke him. “Pay back what you owe me!” he demanded.
29 ‘His fellow servant fell to his knees and begged him, “Be patient with me, and I will pay it back.”
30 ‘But he refused. Instead, he went off and had the man thrown into prison until he could pay the debt. 31 When the other servants saw what had happened, they were outraged and went and told their master everything that had happened.
32 ‘Then the master called the servant in. “You wicked servant,” he said, “I cancelled all that debt of yours because you begged me to. 33 Shouldn’t you have had mercy on your fellow servant just as I had on you?
Lord, you have been so kind and forgiving for all my sins and mis-steps and in turn I am releasing and forgiving all those that have done things against me whether it be humongous sufferings or little things that I allowed myself to dwell on. I do not appreciate it when people attack me and speak about me (sometimes for no apparent reason) or when I try to do what is right. But mine is not to reason why … right?
Let me dwell instead on Your loving kindness which is better than life. Let me dwell on the big debt that I owe and how You forgave it because of Your great love and compassion. All You wanted what was best for me as a Father toward His beloved daughter. Continue to teach me Your ways which are not mine by a long shot. Rain down Your wisdom, Your love and most of all Your forgiving kindness toward me – it means a lot to me! Thank You.